Friday, February 20, 2009
broken to pieces. @ 3:09 AM
its 4 in d morn n im still awake.
shits been haunting me evry sec of my breath.
evryone is asleep.
im all alone sitting
here posting shits.
shedding tears like a fuckhatonic crybaby.
whining like a sissy.
should i give up everything?.
am i falling on myself?.
someone make me stand?.
im shitty!. ive been crying evry nw n den.
tings are hard for us nw.my dad been tensed up at work.
my mum is sick n getting weaker evry single day.
my bro is damn sick hving a deep cut
on his palm cuz of d stupid fite.
ouhh god. what am i supposed to do
to bring d happiness dat
my fam usually hav?.
i need d strength to pull myself through.
im still shaky wit my swity pie n still making tings right.
im all tensed n need alot of perseverance in me.
but fuckingly unfortunately,
my fam fall on evil's deeds?.
i cnt go on crying every nite tinkingn oozing my brain for a way out.
i felt like im losing everything.
my parents totally blamed me
for everything n claimed dat
im d cause of everyting.
ive done wad i had done n
ive done wad u guys told me to do.
bt y isit still me?.
cn anyone understand and give
me hope to bring back my
happy-go-lucky self?.
kakak, i miss u so muchh.hw i wish u wud listen to me earlier
n not juz shoot evrything out dat nite.
i miss those laughter n joy we had evryday.
im effing sorry for all those words tat ive said.
i swear i didnt mean to hurt u.
if only u cn listen to me whining
every single nite seeing us like this.
pls cum hm n be like we used to be.
i cnt eat, i cnt slp n do everthing
peacefully wit us in bad terms.
shedding my tears for us.
bby, i hope u'll do d rite ting for our lurv story.i'll b waiting for d exact time
bt one ting for sure i cnt wait
dat long wit my condition like tis
by myself. im losing hope n im at d
verge of giving up on everything.
i cnt hold on any further.
hw i hope u cn b d one to make me
stand so right up like hw i used to be.
i really hope. im falling to pieces.
if ever a day comes im letting u go,
dat will b day dat i'll give up my life n everything.
i'll leave everything to fate n time.
i will keep on trying as far as i cn.but one ting for sure,
i cnt do tis alone anymore.
im criously ill n im weak like a
rotten apple. i dun hav d appetite to eat.
i dun hav d will to be hapi.
hopeless freak!.
i dun wane be a burden to anyone nimore.
SHITASS RINA'S A TROUBLEMAKER!.
HOPELESS KID!
RECKLESS ABANDON!
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