people say its not nice to start a story with sadness n tears.but i think its bullshit.what if ur story was meant to be about sadness n u wana cut short what happened you will still start with sadness n tears mah.haha crap.

well, something got into my head which i cant resist to stop thinking bout it. was chatting wit my loveliest nazura on msn n were sharing some things when i broke down n get sucky. i mean who wouldnt be mad n saddened if u get to know ur dearest n loveliest bf did a big mistake which u didnt expect him to do for so long eversince we're together. its a 100% heartpain n something might pop out of this mistake dat he's doing. once i caught him doing it n promised me not to do it again just because i dont like it n the next moment ur doing it in fuckingly friendster. i know u've told me n explained to me say many times dat this all due to friendship but wth!. friends dont force each other to msg after work wen u didnt even care to msg me gdnite or sumthing.

i guess u readers got the picture. i just have to let it out since i feel so left out n my bf suddenly change into a flirt which i duno what strikes him. i dont feel insecure cuz i truly understand him n trust him. but the only thing is that he's going too far in making friends by exchanging numbers n talking like she is his new gf wen im nt dere. but i know u didnt mean it that way honey but it seems to work out that way. i dun wana say bout this matter again to u cuz ive said it once n will neva say it twice. it depends on urself to decide what is right n wrong. i dun wan everybody else outside to think that im such a bossy n want my bf to be only mine. no friends nothing at all. no relationship or friendship after us. i dont want that to hapen cuz im not.all i ask u to do is to stop contacting her be it msn, friendster or thru hp. i know its hard for u on msn n friendster. i truly know n dats e reason y ur doing it again.

dear readers;

i'm fucking shedding my tears now thinking bout him when he's at work now making coffees. all i'll do now is just to sit back n let everything flow by nature. if nothing goes wrong i & him will stay long if not u guys know what will happen. i dont know whether im oding the right thing.u guys decide aite. u guys do know that i love him such n im being so random rite now. i know. i'll stop here. blah!.lol.