Friday, December 15, 2006
@ 5:07 PM
its been a long time since i blog.its such a turn off for me to blog u c.well, life's been not up to no good for the moment or forever.idk.been busy working n skuling all day long till today my last day of skul and here i am blogging bout me.his b'dae had passed wen it falls on 10 dec.i was sorry dat i cant spend my time with him cos i have to work and he had an occasion with his family.dat was awful u c.i dun get him even a present cos im empty.im such a useless gal.but juz wana let him noe dat his present will always stay long and it will be my heart.my heart n luv will always be open for him and no matter wad hapens i'll try to give the best shot i can to make u hapi and feel secure.
im juz feeling down rite now cos my thigh hurts and now i guess my migrain is back in action.i tink so.dah sembuh dtg alek plak.haiz..im juz tinking of wad hapened yesterdae.it was seriously a bitter moment and i felt like giving up on him but i kip on telling my heart stop and my brain dont.i juz luv him.but y muz he do dat.its nt like im nt dere for u.i noe we can solve our own problems and others dun have to noe.its ours and dey dun hav to noe.i juz dun understand.n dat person now push all the blame on me for treating u badly but i dun.im juz being caring cos i do and i luv u.its not dat i like to.and now dat guy dusnt tok to me bcos of dat and i juz dun care but i tink i care and i juz duno.all i noe is us.i only care bout us and i want u to noe dat and always kip dat in ur mind and ur heart.omg!..can sumone help me..pls..im in nid..he's feeling bad rite now but i juz told him he dun hav to cos evriting had hapened and wat's done cannot be undone.i wan boon, me and ali to be back like the past but evriting's seemed not to work out well.i juz cant like say "hi boon!!..wassup?.."i have my own waterface okay!!..if he wans it dat way den i'll give him dat way cos i noe i dun care.i juz dun understand.oh god..pls help me..tears are rolling down my cheeks rite now tinking of wads happening.
tmr he'll be going out wit frens and he asked me along n boon will be dere.i really wan to go but i juz cant see boon's face bcos of wad hapened yesterdae.he juz seemed to noe the other side and dat is ali's side n not me.im not treating ali badly cos if i am i wun be with him cos he's my boi and i care alot bout him.u guyz juz dun understand a gal's feelings and thoughts bout being with her boi.oh please..i wana stop crying.i still luv him no matter wad hapens and its the truth..I SWEAR!!!..