Thursday, September 07, 2006
@ 9:56 PM
hey.. im back..im feeling damn angry and pissed off rite nw.. wana noe y?.. my lil fu**ing sis really get on my nerves.. i mean wad's her motive of not coming back home for 3 solid days?.. she's only 14.. i noe dat wen im 14 i hav bad attitude and like a lil slut outside but i dun wan her to become like me cos i care n luv her.. but does she ever tink of dat?.. she often tinks dat i hate her e most but behind those words, i scolded her n kips on bugging her out by asking question and giving her curfews because i care for her and dun wan her to be in trouble.. both of us r not like e past whr we slip together and laugh our head out together.. she's completely different nw and i hate her nw.. wad's wrg wit her?.. does she hav any probs or sumting?.. wad does she really want?.. freedom?.. me and my family had given her enuf freedom for all i noe but she was e one who dusnt noe hw to treasure her freedom.. im trying my best to pull her to the correct path but she keeps on following her frens path.. im not saying dat i have a good attitude..i myself once get into her situation and i myself noe hw she feels.. i tried my best to make her hapi and often stay at home wit family and spend our time together but she dun even tink of our family.. wen she feels like going home, she'll appear.. its been few weeks n mths i've been thru all dis and seeing my lil sis walking and following e wrong path.. i had enuf.. i cant stand this.. i cant stand luking n scolding her almost evryday.. for all i care, she's my sis and i hav e right to do all this.. rite?.. if not me hu else?.. my 1st bro are always busy wit his family.. my 2nd bro busy wit his work and he had already given up on my lil sis cos he dun even care.. my sis often work n went out wit his guy.. so its left wit me n my lil bro.. my lil bro of course cant take care of her cos he's only in primary 5 and he dusnt noe a single ting.. its only me.. but y cant she listen to me.. if she were to listen to me, it will only be carried out for 2 or 3 days.. after dat he fuc*king bad attotude cums again.. n wen dat strike her, my whole family went wild and i was e one who will get a scolding for not taking care of her and not concerning bout her.. but wad bout all those questions dat i asked her?.. wtf!!.. im doing my very best and she dun even tink of wad im feeling rite nw.. i juz had a quarrel wit her and i nagged at her.. she's becoming from bad to worse.. sumone!! pls help me!! wad shud i do.. im all tensed up and blank dwn here.. i dun wan tis to go on.. i dun wan her to be felt left out and she dusnt even have any privilege in this hse for all hu cares she likes going out and dun even bother about wad hapens to our family.. omg!.. pls help me.. i cant stand this.. y muz i always be the one hu get a scolding bout sumone else?.. everyday i shed tears bcos of a scolding whch are not related to me.. everyday i feel e frustration inmy heat bout my sis and my family.. dats it.. i cant go on.. e more i blog, e more tears keep on rolling down my cheek.. i nid help..!!